I have started writing this post several times now and deleted and started over. It seems so monumental to write this message. I am not sure why I feel this way, but here it is. Finding just the right thing to say is difficult for me. I am afraid of sounding silly or frivolous or worse, irrelevant. The simple message is here is to wish you a happy new 2014. Wait! You say, is this all I have to tell you? No!
This past year has been a huge mixed bag of everything. I had to retire sweet J, but I got blessed with Frankie. I got to learn how to get around the big city and even meet new people in the process with the help of my new eyes. I have had no end of fun watching him push through crowds while speed walking through subway stations and the Eaton Centre during rush hour. The boy is determined. There is really no other word for it. He is so graceful. I also reconnected with long-time friends. (Note, I don’t want to say old friends). I also met some new people big and small. I now feel more settled here. I have a doctor, hair dresser, and local pub I adore.
My hopes for 2014 are more personal. I don’t have a resolution. I don’t like them. It also turns out that I am not good at keeping them for the most part. Today, I came across this one word idea. The purpose is to pick just one word that will be your guide/mantra for the year. Put it on sticky notes, your computer, or wherever you will see it most often. My question is how does one find just one word? I went through the dictionary, but there so many words. I looked through documents I had written and they don’t offer much help either. Asking myself questions did finally guide me to a smaller list. The questions are very personal to me, but I am happy to share2 of them with you. 1. What is the most difficult thing to do for me? And 2. What can I do to help me improve? The answers are really simple but took serious contemplation and I’d like to say whine, but it is too early for that so I’ll say chocolates. I have noticed that I am constantly doubting myself and blaming myself for everything even if not related to me in any way. I guess believing in me is the ingredient missing here. So, I think my word will be belief. That’s it! How will I use this? I am hoping that I will learn to change my thought process and behaviour away from the constant second guessing of myself to acceptance that things are going as they should.
My wish for you is whatever it is that you wish for you. I hope we meet new experiences with joy and adventure. Embrace traditions that are positive, relationships that are enriching, and offer only your best. Most of all remember to have fun! Feel free to share your resolutions or lack of them. Do look at this one word site and blog. http://oneword365.com
Do you have your word? I’d love to hear about it.